School Spirit September 16, 2010
Received my college alumni magazine, Spiritus in the mail today. Usually I just skim through it with no real avid interest. Just to see if anyone I knew or any name I vaguely recognize from 20 years ago is in it.
In this issue there was a story about the school being used as part of a movie set. Something called LOL, with Demi Moore and Miley Cyrus was being filmed in the Chemistry building. It sparked a bit of interest; not really sure why. Since graduating, I’ve only gone back once. That was to surprise friends I worked with in the Residence Life office, not for some sense of nostalgia for the “good old days”.
I suppose you could say I don’t have a sense of school spirit since I never joined any associations, don’t go back for Homecoming, and I don’t necessarily swell with pride if I happen to hear about the Titans winning a game. I’ll say “oh – I went there” but it’s not that big a deal. I mean, it was over 20 years ago. (God, when the hell did I get this freakin’ old (adult))
It’s kind of the same with my high school – another place that, coincidentally, was used as part of a movie set. A movie called Voices was filmed there with Michael Ontkean (The Rookies, Twin Peaks) and Amy Irving (Carrie, Yentl). But, anyway -I’ve never gone back there, and don’t really participate in any alumni stuff.
It’s not that I had bad experiences at either institution. On the contrary they were both crucial in helping me learn, and grow and discover different facets of myself. But – I don’t know – I just don’t “connect” with the whole alma mater, camaraderie aspect of it all. Always the standoffish hermit, and never one to “join in” (which makes this whole Twitter/Facebook/blogging thing kind of a trip in itself) yet yearning to feel connected or known, yet backing away from anyone’s efforts to delve deeper.
I don’t know. I’m just weird that way.
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